You seached for god, so did i once, maybe simply trying to comprehend, to understand what he/she/she-he/abstract/hypothetical is all about. Immersed self in Buddhism during my 12th std exams; funny such pursuits assume an altogether different meaning when you are supposed to be bothered with other banalities.
Siddharta seemed elusive then, got into Osho too for a while, went on a single trek to hampi supposedly to find myself. I did find a world heritage site!!
I had so many different theories of my own, changed and revised them. Had my own philosophies, had my own set of reserved distaste & anger for weak people. …. treading down a similar path? perhaps not … but its a path never the less we all undertake taking into account only the end.
Did you know there are shaivetes who drink liquor, indulge in free sex, and do all things perhaps dispicable to a large section of the society in the name of service to the lord? Maybe they are on the same path……looking for the end…. what perhaps we all miss though, is the ‘means’!!
